I thought that in my life, I have lived quite decent and I thought I was okay with that, putting focus on only at certain spot but now actually, life is just much more than that, you don't really live for yourself, but for the people. However, to be involved with people you should have see yourself first, What's inside you, How you want deal with it, And what's coming from you, say you're a tree, Roots (inside you) must be sturdy enough to let people hanging on to you in the future. I want to be that someone who people can rely on. Not to deny, the idea of depending to someone could be so great and awesome at some point but we all should know, You can't really sure of that someone but what can you always sure of is you, YOURSELF.
These past months have been an eye opening to me, It felt good and kind of fulfilling for myself, the sense of responsibility and seriousness all together is what I have lost a long time ago. Confuse, no rationality and drowning with all those never ending thoughts and feelings, which not helping at all is slowly gone. I have learned that we have two options, either YES OR NO but we are sometimes have so much time and keep dragging and make it hard on ourselves to not choose and to not settle it down or sometimes we just never find solution to it at all and be ignorant. Just be prepared it might will haunt you again in future. Ofc sure you can't apply this to everything but it does make sense at some part of our life decision. This somehow, a lesson and just a right time for me to rebuild my character. I'm grateful and forever will be. Alhamdulillah.
I am very grateful to finally realize, thankful for whom I met along the way, not all but right now I know who I really want to keep close to, proud of my circle and i will now decide what I want and I know my worth. My time, my sanity and myself is valuable in this life, always been, always will. This will not happened too if i never met and see how ridiculous and trashy some people can be. So ladies, Please take time knowing some people because you might meet a living trash. The one that put your life upside down and only know how to bring out the worse in you just so He can feel better about himself. I have no idea how this person is able to live until now but (I'm sorry i sound very harsh) Okay let's pray that he will get a good life ahead. Thank you for the time and thank you for showing me that this is exactly WHAT I DON'T WANT. I wouldn't be at my place right now if it's not from knowing someone like you, kinda feel i wasted my time and energy too but luckily not for long.. suka or not we gotta deal with it and I'm truly Done.
For all the people that is struggling so hard right now, please don't give up. Just pray and keep believing that Allah will surely open the door for you, sooner or later.. Keep hanging on to HIM. Keep learning and try your best to always be better, you will never stop learning selagi hidup kat dunia ni. And stay humble, We might think that we Are RIGHT, but we are human we CAN BE VERY WRONG too so you shall listen to people in order for you to GROW by CHANGE. Ever wonder why same things keep happening to you? If so this is the time for you to CHANGE.
Look at yourself first. Blame yourself, and not so fast on others. Stay humble... :)
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