Sesungguhnya, Allah Maha Tahu.
I went through phase of the lowest point of my life. I couldn't find anything that can make me happy and I barely surviving. I used to find things and make fun out of it. It was that easy last time but not at that time. I let myself to be sad, I don't know if I exaggerated about it or I was just really really sad and it happened for quite a some time. I was aware of it but I felt helpless regardless. Hopeless. Being mentally broken but physically okay made me think of what if it is the other way round. Would i feel different, would it hurt different, would it be less painful, would i get healed faster? God knows what nonsense I had in mind and He really did gave me a cold fever.
Was a little excited (I barely get sick, Alhamdulillah for a good health) (I thought normal fever)
Was worried and the fever keep coming until I can't take it and went to the clinic.
Was horrified thinking I might be getting dengue fever but no Alhamdulillah.
It is Chicken Pox. Haa. Funny right.. at this age. But actually its not at all.
It was crazy. Not feeling myself at all for the first few days. It was all over my skin. MY SKIN.. and what we learned from school that SKIN IS THE LARGEST ORGAN of the body. It irritates me like hell.. I can't get a proper sleep. I even can't think straight and becoming senile. Imagine that it feels like people poking you the whole time. So I was thinking the reason why I can't function properly also because of that my receptor sense of touch is overused. I might sound dramatic but it really felt like that I just want to let people know. And to remind my ungrateful ass in the future.
So after awhile, I realised that I can't even take it rationally the small pain that was gifted to me. Made me think and to remember I had the support of my family especially from my mom during this hell of time. (She helped me to pantang, what to eat and what not). To cherish and be grateful for what I have.. and life is short so take it easy, don't think too much, remind yourself of the great things that happened in life. You are just precious as others!
Don't be sad for too long. Find solution and approach to what you think may caused you feel that way. Go and settle. Seek Allah and ask for his guidance. (don't forget to pray).. I once thought so empty I had received nothing in return but no.. Allah Maha Tahu. Allah Maha Besar.
Life is worth living, so live it another day..
Life is worth living again. (jb)
**You've done a great job.. You did well so far and did nice to others/parents. We've come this far! Also is for all my friends who happen to read this.
The thing about being sad also will slowly affect your health. You tend to invite such problems because when you are weak mentally, your immune system will be the same state as well. And that's bad.
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